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i think its about time you be real with yourself.
and be real with God.
you know very well youre struggling in your relationship with Him.
you know very well in your mind that theres no greater love than Gods love.
you know very well that nothing compares to the gentleness and warmth of His embrace.
you know very well the sweetness and tangiblity of His omnipotent presence
but all the time your heart pulls you away from it.
it hinders you from enjoying Gods wonderful love to the fullest.
it actually drives you to the point of thinking over choosing Gods love or mans love.
when you know very well its Gods love you want.
its Gods love you need.
but it tells you to go back to mans love and intimacy.
it tells you to be lost in all that intimate relationship.
it tells you that its such a sense of security and assurance.
it makes you wonder if you should keep your youthhood pure for God.
it makes you wonder if the sacrifice is worth it.
but you know very well you have to trust God on this.
you have to trust Gods love for it is bigger than anything else.
without even knowing how to love God how would you love man.
for you have to love God first and love Him more than man.
or else your love for man will not be Godly love.
the joy of intimacy is the reward of commitment.
love God first. then man.
have an intimate relationship with God first. then man.
commit yourself to God first. then man.
trust God and keep to the true love waits oath no matter what.
surrender your life into His hands.
dont go into anything unless He shows you the way.
i really want to obey and abide.
but i find it so hard.
just so hard.
the deceitful heart is such a major distraction.
being human is a challenge in itself.
Spirit pray for me please.
i really need your help in these times.

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